Tonight, I got a phone call from one of my good friends. She was excitedly talking about her wedding that is planned for December 30, and she wanted to make sure that I knew this when making my holiday plans so I would be in town for her wedding. I told her I would be here and I wouldn’t miss it for the world. I am excited for her. Then she hits me up for the REAL reason for the phone call. She needs my help next weekend to do a babyshower for another friend of ours. Again, I am glad to be able to do this, although party planning is not usually my cup of tea. Especially decorating. I totally suck at decorating. But I do have fun wherever I go.
Anyway, the point of this post. While I am totally happy for my my friend’s upcoming wedding and baby, it leaves me a little confused. There is this part of me that is going “hello, God, its me, Angela, have you forgotten about me down here in south Georgia?” I know that God has a plan for me and maybe it is not getting married and having a family, although it is something that I would like to have someday. Lately, I have tried not to focus on what I don’t have but on the opportunities that I am given to live each day to its fullest. I guess it is times like this that hit me kind of hard. It is difficult in today’s society to be single. There is such a stigma if you are not married. It seems to be worse where I live now. It really isn’t about getting married. if that were my goal, I am sure I could have been married by now, but that is not the goal. I want to marry the one that God has for me. It is not always easy but I know that God will give me the desires of my heart. Right now my desire is to live for God and be what He wants me to be.